November 17, 2008

cOmiNg cLeAn

hi. Checking in. It's no secret I suppose that I'm in a bit of a slump.
I can't seem to focus and have little energy to make anything.
The truth is, I'm bi-polar, think Jimi Hendrix and Manic Depression,
and my meds are all messed up.
They started tinkering with them a little over 10 weeks ago.
Right now I'm cycling through the depression part of it.
It is a dark place.
I'm confident that it will get straightened out
but it doesn't seem to be happening fast enough.
In an effort to help keep me sane I'm writing this to you all,
surprisingly it does help me feel a bit better.
I guess I'm coming clean with who I am to you.
iN jOy,


Carmen said...

I hope you're feeling better soon.


Krissysart said...

Suz, you are not alone my friend. I just went through a terrible darkness (which comes and goes since I had my children). Hang in there. There is a light at the end of the tunnel, I promise. When your meds get right life will return to normal. I know when you are in the midst of it, it feels as if the world will never be bright again but things are going to change. I say these things because I know how it feels and what you are going through. Don't give up, don't give up, don't give up. I'm with you and you are in my thoughts.

Connie said...

"coming clean with who I am to you" does not sound very accurate to me. To me, you are a creative soul who has higher thoughts than this world can satisfy. In my dark places, I learned to lean on Jesus. Wait on those meds and wait on Him, get to know Him. I promise you an unspeakable joy. Hang on to hope, Connie

Jennifer DeDonato said...

You WILL feel better very soon. I know its hard but stay stong. Take care


~dani~ said...

Oh are such a doll and I am so sorry you have to deal with this. I am here for you. Go check your email.

Big ole virtual hugs~

Victorian Lady said...

Hi Suz,

I'm so sorry you're not feeling well, and I hope you get better soon!

I'll be here either way! :)


Lance said...

I left you a little something on my blog. hope it helps you feel better, if only a little.

ellie said...

My dear friend,
You are beauty. You have always been beauty.
As you go through this darkness, I see your light more than ever. I know you don't feel it right now, but it still burns.
Take time, slow your pace, release expectation and know that you are loved. You. Are. Loved.

Jenn said...

(((((sweet sUz)))) I absolutely hate that you are going through this rough time. You are in my thoughts every day and I want you to know how much you are loved. xoxoxox...jenn

janell berryman artist-owner said...

I am so slow in the blog world. Sorry to hear you are going though this. Take care. I hope you get better soon! Janell